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Question #5: Hi! I’m an incoming resident. Maybe it’s cliché, but what’s something you know now that you wish you would have known as an intern?
First off, congratulations and welcome to you and all of our incoming UCSF residents! We are so excited to have you here. And to all those continuing or graduating, congratulations on inching one big step forward this year.
I think this question applies to all of us: those just coming in and those continuing on. The incoming interns are becoming doctors for the very first time. Others are stepping into more senior roles, perhaps fellowship, perhaps a first attending job.
Before starting intern year, I remember wanting to know what secret piece of advice would make the transition feel smoother and less intimidating. The honest answer is that there probably is no single secret. But if I could go back and tell myself one thing, it would be this: you are not behind.
Intern year has a strange way of making very capable people feel newly incompetent. You go from being a successful senior medical student to a brand-new physician, where suddenly every small action feels like it carries enormous weight. You may feel slow pre-rounding. You may stare at an order set wondering whether you are missing something. You may watch a senior resident call back a consult, update a family, and triage three pages with what looks like effortless calm, and think: how will I ever get there? Imposter syndrome can feel especially loud at a place like UCSF, where you are surrounded by people who are brilliant, thoughtful, accomplished, and somehow also seem to have found time to run marathons, publish papers, raise children, and make sourdough.
I also wish I had known that I would make mistakes. Not because mistakes are acceptable in some casual way, but because medicine is complex and unexpected outcomes happen. There may be a close call, or a moment when something does not go the way you hoped. These moments feel awful, because you care about your patients. Hold onto that. Be truthful when you are unsure. Ask for help early. Follow through on the things you say you will do. Treat staff, colleagues, patients, families, and yourself with respect. Develop a system, then keep improving it. Eat when you can. Sleep when you can. Let other people help you.
Growth in residency happens quietly. To paraphrase one of my favorite reels from Dr. Glaucomflecken: do a little bit better every day. Did I do well today? If not, did I do a bit better than yesterday? If not, promise to do a bit better tomorrow. Then one day, almost without noticing, you will have grown a ton. You will reassure a medical student who reminds you of yourself. You will realize that the things that once felt impossible now feel familiar.
So to our incoming residents, and to all of us stepping into something new: you are not behind. You are becoming the kind of physician others will look to with that same impossible-seeming calm. And until then, we are all trying to do a little bit better every day, together.
